Hate this feeling

I hate this feeling,
a feeling that make me suddenly smile although I am crying
a feeling that make me suddenly laugh although there is nothing funny
a feeling that make me suddenly happy although all is depressing

I hate this feeling,
a feeling that make me always wait although I am busy
a feeling that make me always think although there is nothing to think
a feeling that make me always worry although all is okay

I hate this feeling, really hate this feeling
a feeling that make me think I am being noticed but actually is not at all
a feeling that make me think I am being cared but actually ignored
a feeling that make me think 'what is this feeling'?

I really really hate this feeling when I start to realize this feeling is make me take my own words

Rainbow Rima

Rainbow Rima

This picture drawing was a big help to comfort myself and other :)